Looking back at the past three years. I am trying to see whether i gained anything out of this journey.
*Now I hate the one i used to love
*I’ve broken hearts in the process
*I feel no wiser,no smarter, nor happy
*Instead, i feel more older and pathetic
Crunching the numbers together reveals that i have wasted/lost far more than i gained.
Im begining to understand the notion of wholeness..or rather appreciate it. Maybe im better off being alone. I have my deams and ambititions set. Having someone or not wont change them. It would have been nice to have someone tagging along though
Lets see how long i can lie to myself and believe this crap